I’d like to start again.
But I’m not sure how, or where to begin.
I’ve been gone for so long, it’s difficult to jump right back into where I left off.
When I stepped away from the blog in April, I was beginning a new journey. I had a new baby and my family was starting on a new adventure. Since I left so much has changed. J celebrated his 3rd birthday, Baby E is now half a year old, and we live in a totally new house, city, and state.
Things are different, I’m different, my family’s different. During this time, I’ve been able to take a step back and really think about how I parent and how the blog influences how I parent.
You see, before I left, the blog influenced my day a lot. Every morning I’d get up and think about the activities I wanted to do with J. I’d scour the internet looking for great play ideas so that I could switch them up some to make them unique for my blog. Often time these “fun” activities would fail or J would not be interested. I tried to not care, but I did. Playing turned into work, and I was getting tired. Burnt out even.
I knew something had to change. With our big move looming in the future, and adjusting to a new baby, I needed a break. I needed a change.
I took a step back and I set out to find a new, better normal for my family. I needed to play again, not only for J, but for me too.
Every morning I’d wake up and think, “I wonder what new experience J will teach me today”. I let him lead and trusted him to show me the way back to playfulness. Together, we got lost in the Island of Sodor where we helped Thomas deliver presents to the happy children. We found treasure outside in the garden where roly polys were kings. We laughed and got soaked in the falling rain and ran in the sunshine. Together we created new foods like Honey Squares, and we baked bread together. Every day I marveled in his wisdom and ever expanding imagination.
With J as my teacher, he healed and showed me a new way. He brought be back to where I once was, when play itself could make me happy. He showed me that you don’t need a bunch of invitations to play or planned out activities to have a fantastic time.
Through J, I was reminded how to enjoy the pure pleasure and sweetness of a child’s play. He brought sunshine back into my life.
With that said…this blog may look a bit different than it did before. I would like to be more authentic with you and to share more of my adventures, feelings, and thoughts with you. I hope that I can continue to inspire you and learn from you. Here’s the future!