I’ve been struggling lately with the blog and I haven’t really understood why. I thought for sure that it was because of the pregnancy and the need to nap whenever possible. However, the first trimester has come and gone and my energy level is back to normal. But blogging is still a struggle some days.
It’s time for me to stand back and look at life a bit. Time to find a new balance. Time to re-prioritize my day to day life.
Family, Me, Blog.
If you’ve read my guest post over at Crayon Freckles, you know that we recently moved and our lives have completely changed. My husband is home for a full year with no traveling or deployments. This is the first year in the 8 years my husband I have been together that he will be home. He’s also in school and is home a lot throughout the day.
You would think that would mean that I have more time to blog, more time for me, but In actuality it’s the complete opposite.
I no longer have weeks on end by myself focusing on just J and I. No more lonely nights where the blog and the blogging network kept me company. No more naptimes stuck at home typing away on my computer.
Now, I have time to focus on my little family. We take long walks in the evening, spend every Sunday morning at J’s favorite park, and have Saturday movie nights. I get naptimes to run errands, shop, or sit on the porch with my book. It’s my time…the only time that’s just for me. And sometimes I don’t want to spend that time in front of my computer.
But, I LOVE this blog so much. I still want to blog. Shoot, I have a list full of blog posts that need to be written. I have felt so guilty for not posting enough and not doing all the behind the scene blogging stuff that needs to be done. I feel the pressure to stay on top of things and to post more. Today I realized that that pressure was coming from no one else but me.
I’ve decided to let go of that guilt, let go of that pressure. In the big picture of my life other things matter more.
Don’t worry though, I’m still here…just not every day. I promise that I will respond to your comments and emails, it might just take me a few days. I will still blog, but I will only post 3 times a week instead of every day.
One thing I know for sure is that life is about balance. I believe that you can do whatever you want to do….you just can’t do it all at the same time. Some things have to take priority.
It’s time to take a step back from the computer and focus on what’s really important in my life…these two.
After all, this it the last few months of just the three of us before we add one more. I want to treasure this special season in our lives. It’s a wonderful time for us and I need to get the most out of it.
Have you ever felt this way? Ever had to re-prioritize your life? What challenges do you have with life balance?